hi everyone. I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar 1 after a very scary psychotic episode. I started taking antidepressants which may have triggered the major manic episode. Now I'm on a lot of medicine and I'm worried that I'll never be back to normal.

I used to have it all together and now I struggle with working part time. I never had to put so much effort into getting up, dressed, and doing normal everyday things. I feel anxious all of the time. I also feel so embarrassed that I lost touch with reality and acted so weird before I went into the hospital. I was having full blown delusions and hallucinations. I wonder how my brain could betray me so much.

I don't have much of a support system so I wanted to reach out and try to become part of this community. I've been reading for a while and I finally felt brave enough to post my story. I'm so scared that things will never get better. Does it get better?

thanks in advance