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Originally Posted by manicdiamond
hi everyone. I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar 1 after a very scary psychotic episode. I started taking antidepressants which may have triggered the major manic episode. Now I'm on a lot of medicine and I'm worried that I'll never be back to normal.
I used to have it all together and now I struggle with working part time. I never had to put so much effort into getting up, dressed, and doing normal everyday things. I feel anxious all of the time. I also feel so embarrassed that I lost touch with reality and acted so weird before I went into the hospital. I was having full blown delusions and hallucinations. I wonder how my brain could betray me so much.
I don't have much of a support system so I wanted to reach out and try to become part of this community. I've been reading for a while and I finally felt brave enough to post my story. I'm so scared that things will never get better. Does it get better?
thanks in advance  |
Yes, it gets better. In my experience a few months. Try to interact with people. Reestablish your believe in your senses. That goes pretty much automatically. Maybe talk to those you mistrusted. But also just reflect, rerationalise, as it were.
For me, a disbelief in one reality helps: you just deviated more than most. A gift, in some way, but not something that is gonna happen all the time, progressively more, if you take time to recharge, reorder/rerationalise and untangle. Depression does that for you. Use it. But don't isolate if you don't "have to": feel when you can start to function again, gradually.