I'm not even sure where to post this. Sorry in advance.

A woman who was a second mother to me passed away recently. I haven't seen her in years so when I found out it was a surprise. My question is should I attend the funeral?

I really don't want to go but my mom keeps guilt tripping me. My mother says " you don't want to go out and I can't keep making excuses for you", That I should go to "show my respect because she helped raised me".

I keep thinking why I don't want to go and if my reason of not going are selfish. I'm not sure what to do.

Thank you for taking the time to read my thread.