WOW!! Thanx guys...That really helped. Its like this - I know all these but hearing from someone else does make a difference.

Yes...now that I think this way...I really feel I cannot do without her. I can absolutely imagine myself having kids and growing old with her. I still wont say I find her absolutely lovely but I really think she is a terrific person and that I am very lucky.

I know that my moods and opinions change frequently...but all the above things are bottomlines and they wont change. As far as my friends are concerned - I think it is my own insecurity which is affecting me and not their opinions. So I will do as some gr8 person said...I will tell them to shove it.

Thanx guys...I think I have formed some idea of what I am going to do - but if u have any other inputs I will be glad to know of them.