I have bad social anxiety and I want to overcome it, so my goal right now is to make new friends and be more social. I've already started meeting lots of people at my gym, and I guess it's going well.

One of my old friends texted me today and wanted to hang out. (We haven't texted in months, and she randomly texted me today.) We're really good friends and have been for a while.

The funny thing is, I want friends and want to be more social, but I just don't want to hang out. (I know, it's paradoxical.) Maybe I'm just introverted? No idea.

I'm not depressed right now (at least I don't think?). I'm pretty happy and motivated. It just feels like it's an effort to hang out with people -- like it's a real effort to maintain a friendship -- and I'm just super lazy!

So, I guess I want more friendships, but I don't want to put the effort in. How can I motivate myself?