If I cry, I'm called an attention seeker. If I stay silent, I destroy myself.

I'm a teenage girl who posts lyrics from sad-*** songs on facebook begging for attention, and I hate myself for that, because I'm a ****ing 22 year old dude.

I'm a sadboy with no girlfriend, no friends, no people beside really close family that are willing to tolerate my presence.

If I try, if I go out there, dare to go outside, just to get the same reaction of people crossing to the other side of the road, girls snickering while looking at me, people who sit next to me go and find another sit, then why bother?

Yet I can't complain. I can't cry. Because I'm a man.

I hate borderline. I hate BEING borderline.

I hate myself.