I called my t jus now...i left my friends on the internet......i pushed them away.....i told about the pain.........chase......what is he............me......i want a friend..my t will be...she will tell me.......one day ill be in a field of roses..and pick you one......not feling so good.....tears ran through my eyes...she'll give me something to remember.....one.day...autumn will love me......i will be a good dad......and kenny will understand........my t does she probably wishes i could come daily to help me with my feelings.......................just close my eyes and pray......the dark seems comforting........................................t......where are you ......its so dark i can't find you.........god...........................lead me to her..............................lead me........