yeah memory gaps are terrible, i would journal but im scared that i would scare myself in the future if i ever get better when i read it back and cause a problem/relapse

sometimes i feel like "is there anybody out there"


well... i dont think its stupid... because of some of the things i've looked into, or researched if you will... some pretty messed up stuff... i tend to get terrified when im alone some where too... especially in the dark, feel like im surrounded then...
but i guess curious minds wander - probably where they aught not go!

plus im Sagittarius...