Does anyone else sometimes kinda welcome their depression? When I am depressed after I was dysphoric hypo, then.. depression seems to be kind of a relief? Because it is finally quite?

Of course then it goes down, but at first days it seems waaay better than what I had before. I am even less suicidal when I am depressed then on a bad hypo.
(Or different. Depression is more of a "if I had a button to undo my existance I would press it" but without wanting to take concrete actions. Bad hypo is "I can't anymore, this has to stop, please stop" and a constant impuls to act out on it.)

Anyone?