I am not a native English speaker, so my writing may sound a bit awkward here and there, so please be generous with it. It would be greatly appreciated

I started smoking pot in my senior year in college. 1st semester, I smoked about 2 months daily, but had no problem. Dosage was relatively moderate. I got good grades, and my social scene was fine. Then I couldn't smoke during the winter break away from the campus, which lasted about 6 weeks. At that time, I was confident that I am not addicted to marijuana, or thought that maybe it just isn't addictive by its nature. Looking back, I believe it made me a bit hypomanic, but not serious enough to cause harm in daily life. Rather, that slightly elated and energized state made me more productive, social, and satisfied.

And then, from the beginning of the 2nd semester, I increased the dosage and started smoking about 3g a day, being always high when I am awake. I would skip classes occasionally and my grades dropped, but it was still in B range, so it didn't concern me whole lot. It wouldn't impact my gpa too much and I just had to pass and graduate. However, after smoking pot about 8 bowls in a bong daily for 2 months, I had a full blown manic episode. I wouldn't go in details since it closely resembled what others experienced based on what I've read so far. (in short, I got arrested, hospitalized for 2 weeks, and officially diagnosed as Bipolar I)

However, I am still unsure if it was due to the poor diet with loss of appetite (I lost 20 lbs in 2 months), or heavy use of marijuana, or other heavier drug I used. After I've been smoking for 2 months that semester, me and friend of mine had molly when we went to EDM concert in spring. I also smoked pot a lot there. Then 3 days later, manic episode struck me, which lasted about 3 weeks. Afterward, I felt so embarassed about what I've dont during the episode and became very very depressed for about a year. I've been taking meds (e.g. Lithium, buprpion, lamictal), but I have been too depressed to do anything. I wouldn't wash for 3 days, my parents sort of forced me to work out since it will make my mood better, but nothing really worked out to make me feel better.

I have digressed enough with my personal story, so going back to the main subject, I was curious what other people with Bipolar I think about drug use relating to the manic episode. I personally believe that marijuana was not a direct trigger since I've been using heavily for 2 months then cut off for a month then smoked more heavily for 2 months before the episode. I've read someone who smoked daily for 3 years then had an episode, but it is hard to believe that it takes '3 years' for marijuana to accumulate in a body to lead into a full manic state.

Maybe smoking pot does graually accumulates and takes time to build up to eventually manifest? (even like 2 months to few years?) Or was it the pot that made me sort of 'hypomanic' but it was the molly that blowed me hard enough to push hypomanic to full manic episode due to draining the serotonin and altering the brain chemistry? Back then, I had a relatively high dose of molly, and I had a very negative reaction such as difficulty breathing. No need to say molly had made my mental state very unstable, but my guess is if not misused, pot woudln't worsen symptoms of bipolar serious enough to trigger a full blown manic episode. Please feel free to correct me for any reason. I do know it won't be beneficial overall, but I just think as long as it isn't bad enough to trigger, what should prevent me from smoking in moderate amount?

I am recovering from the depression, and I don't smoke as much. Mayba a single hit once every two week (which is almost like nothing). I smoke cigs daily and drink about once a week. So, why not smoke pot responsibly for the sake of self-medicating since I presume it won't trigger an episode.
I just feel like it can't be that bad since (1) I am seeing a therapist, (2) taking pills, (3) close friends and parents check my mood often, (4) my weight has recovered to normal range, and (5) even smoking heavily monthly didn't seem to directly trigger in the past. I know all these safe guards could sound like a list of excuses to just smoke pot, but it seems like a safe bet to me. My main concern at this point is to not trigger a manic episode, so I want to know smoking pot would be safe in the current situation.

Here are question I'd like to address:

1) Does hymonaic state usually precede full manic state?
2) If so, can medication be adjusted by a doctor during hypomanic state so that it doesn't progress to full manic?
3) Can marijuana instantly and directly trigger a manic episode? Or does it take time to build up and lead to an episode?
4) Is molly more likely to induce psychosis (manic eposide) than pot since it is more psychoactive?
5) Does my logic for safe pot smoking sound any sense at all?

I know that even the psychiatrists cannot give a definite answer to those questions, but I just wanted to hear opinions of people who actually went through similar experience. So, what are you opinions on this?

Also, thanks for reading, and any addition of random comments would also be appreciated.