that is all completely true... I just have to come to terms that it's over. that's the hard part, it's only been 7 days . I did send him a goodbye email, so that I could start the process of closure and to see if there was one more chance. I apologized and did communicate how hurt I felt about this situation with being there for his friends wife.

he never responded . and I suspect that it's bc something has flourished . nonetheless, I just have to cope with it all.
I know it wasn't a good fit, and I helped end it with my behavior. I think what has most affected me is finding myself turning 34 and I guess o figured I'd find that person by now, that I'd have a chance at having a family soon. I do want to find love not perfection... that's unrealistic.

i as just ready for happiness I guess. I'm not trying to find someone to make me happy I want to be happy and am ready to give my love. a true partnership I suppose. it's just hard to find someone at my age that is in the same stage.