I am in the midst of a bipolar depression which has been going on for a few months now... its miserable. I take medicine which helps with the other symptoms but have yet to find anything that helps get me out of this dark muck. I know it ends eventually but it seems to get worse every time. Its not only a bleak outlook on life but a physical sensation that weighs me down... it makes me a quiet, sad and angry person only made worse by outside events. The world is seemingly much more cold when Im like this. I wish I was manic, the world is beautiful when I am manic and nothing was bad.

Excuse my ramblings I just need to speak... Its dark in here to the point where i question my will to live on a daily basis and wonder what is the point? but sleep it off because it "gets better" so they say.

Please tell me I am not the only one who suffers so deeply? maybe i am just more sensitive...