How do you know this isn't all just part of the process of re-living the pain of the trauma in order to let it go? It's like the traumatic event wants to surface, so you can purge it. Pain is like a bacteria in your body that needs to be purged. Antibiotics are the antidote. For you, the traumatic event needs to be purged.

What does purging look like? Re-living the event, voluntarily or involuntarily. Experiencing the pain of the event. Coming to a better understanding of the event from another timeline in your life, when perhaps you are better equipped to handle that traumatic event.

I may be totally wrong. I've been known to be wrong before. If I'm right, medicating it means you won't be doing a purge.

The next part of the purge is about forgiveness. Forgiving whomever created this traumatic event in your life. Perhaps nobody created it, it just happened through circumstance. Purging does include forgiveness. Then there's forgiving yourself.

I'm afraid if you are in the middle of purging your pain, you will disrupt it with hospitalisation. Hospitalisation will be about pushing all the pain back inside and medicating it. If you are at risk of committing suicide, then you need to be under someone else's care.

If you are merely purging the painful event, you won't accomplish that at the hospital. It really boils down to what YOU think is happening to you. Please don't change your plans to go to the hospital because of what I've said, because I might be wrong.