i am in first year and they do have counselling but i am too scared to mention anything about what has been happening to any of the counsellors i just really dont know what to do anymore i cant keep doing this i keep trying not to go buy things i can do "stuff" with but i really want to i am so tired i just dont know what to do my family will be mad if i say i cant do uni if i keep doing uni i will be paying to fail and my family will be mad i wasted money when i do fail i cant i dont see any other options anymore other than for me to just disappear and be gone forever i really dont think i have another choice.