t,

i was nervous and shy at first..i didnt know how to act and i didnt talk...you would say something, like a joke at me, and i just smiled..... . i warmed up a little... you being playful with me...it helped...our last session you were so angry..not at me, but just angry. not like, violent, or verbally abusive. just your face and your eyes... your demeanor. you told me once that emotionally i am like a child. i am really realizing that now. because your anger scared me, and made me nervous. and i came today... and i still felt that way, even though you reassured me through texts three times. i still felt strange, nervous, unsure.... i think ive been through so much... and the transference i feel for you...which is like a father... gets mixed into how my dad was sometimes. and i fear you like i feared him...

at any rate, T... i eventually relaxed some and had fun. thanks for telling me to come

me