I think I'm not going to return. It will hurt more to quit slowly, to see you might be relieved I ended. I'd rather you tell me you are angry at me or whatever, rather than deny the fact that you changed.. That would help me make a decision to leave. I can't stop thinking about killing myself. I have no one to talk to about this, I'm alone in so much pain, despair, and hopelessness. I don't understand what happened between us. If i live, i think it will take years of therapy to repair the damage.