One thing I have noticed about depression is that our perception of our lives becomes very skewed. You may have plenty of times that you have been happy, but you are forgetting them right now because you are looking at your life through depression's lens of reality.

Then again, you may have been depressed more than the average person. But that does not mean that you can't get better. You should let your doctor know that your Celexa is not helping. Sure, give it some time, but after a couple weeks, let the doctor know you are getting no relief. And by all means, if you feel suicidal, go to the ER. You deserve to feel better, and you CAN feel better with proper treatment.

In the meantime, while waiting for meds to do their job, make sure you are getting plenty of exercise and try to interact with others and keep a structured schedule. Even if your schedule is 1. Wake up and drink a cup of coffee 2. Shower 3. Go to the grocery store 4. Go for a brisk walk 5. Call a friend or family member, etc.

Exercise has been proven to often be as effective as antidepressants, so do some kind of vigorous activity as often as you can. My favorite is dancing and walking, with occasional jogging.

Maybe you can find a local support group you can go to for some meaningful social interaction? Do you have a therapist? That would be another thing that could help you.

Don't give up. Hang in there. We're rooting for you!