(((((((((sending gentle hugs and lots of love))))))))
i myself have been there an it is not the answer. was never so happy that i didn't succeed. ending you life is not the answer ever. we need to answer the right questions to find the answers we seek. only you know what those answers are you seek to find. but when you are GONE that life journey is over forever and is irreversable. so sorry you are hurting, let me know if i can help.

recluse1