I guess this ambivalence (?) is mostly within the NHS rather than with private T's - at least I hope so.

My tolerance for being abused and disrespected by professionals is zero now, whereas before it was far too high

What a naive little bear I was

I probably "deserved" all the abuse I got

I couldn't describe my whole "history" in 10 minutes to someone who didn't give a crap. (IRL)

Mea culpa

The meds they "put" me on have messed my body up so badly that ......