Wow. I'm so sorry. I've been in an emotionally abusie relationship myself and it's hard to realise what's happening when you are in the midst of it isn't it? Nothing compared to what you have been through though. Well done for getting out. Well done for speaking about it! You will find someone who gives you the world and who won't dare harm you emotionally or in any way for that matter, and you will see the difference it makes to be with someone who truly deserves you (((hugs)))