Stupid school. Until administrative stuff gets worked out (long story) I can't see my T.

Can't book an appointment, can't talk to him...

and I think I'm going insane. I mean it's only been a week now, but I WANT MY T.

I feel lost. Hate the word so much, but I feel abandoned.

It hurts so much and I can't even say to myself "he's only gone for __ days" ... because I don't know when he'll be back. Could be tomorrow, could be another week - heck it could be more than that.

I feel pathetic. When he's back I might only get to see him every 2-3 weeks because of other students... and that hurts too.

I just hurt. It's like he's never ever coming back. Like I pushed him away and he's left. But this time it wasn't my fault... unless he never wants to see me again.

I feel dependent. Why do I latch onto peope. Shouldn't get close to T. Shouldn't trust him.

Maybe I should just quit therapy now and never go back - even when he is back.

I'm gonna go cry now.