((((Lex))) sometimes the numbing out part isn't that bad... and you said what caused you to be so low... a couple of reasons. I'm sorry you thrive on attention from others... BUT HERE IS MY ATTENTION! I don't know if you pay more attention to yourself if that would help on the short trip... learning to feel more secure about who you are will help that on the long haul. Welcome to the pits. <moving over to make room> but I really hope you don't stay long!