You have my sympathy. I work in public education, and I know it is a daily struggle. I'm relatively stable and have a relatively stress-free job in special education, but I know how hard it can be. I've tried to be a regular education teacher a few times, but I just can't handle it and always fall apart. I've thought about leaving education completely, but I really need the salary, enjoy the vacations, find it to be worthwhile at times, and can't think of anything else to do.

Do you think you can make it until summer vacation? It sounds like the environment you are in right now is toxic and not healthy for you. If there is anyway you could get out of it now, I would consider it. At the very least, I would certainly consider making a career change over the summer. Substitute teaching can be hell, and the pay is terrible.

Best of luck.