Thanks RX, it does help to get it out!!
I just slept another hour and half and am going to take HS meds and go to bed. I've slept ~4.5 hours in the past 10hours so I think it's safe to say I'm no longer underslept.
.25 is a tiny dose. Is weird that it might have just fixed me, at least for the time being. And it knocked me out too briefly lol.
I can't believe I used to take 3mg daily.
I'm on the right track. i do want off it completely and need to suck it up and accept that some doses here and there are ok versus the alternative of coming unhinged. I'm embarrassed I had to leave work early. Oh well, new day, and new week coming soon.
Thanks again

Off to bed and pretty much guarantee I'll sleep another solid 8.