OMG, that guy is lucky to be alive . . . he would be a dead man if that had happened to me. And the world would be a sweeter place. :P

First of all, you are NOT a N-magnet. There are more of these type of people out there than the mental health community will acknowledge. It is true, however, that narcissists are drawn to the smart, the successful, the nice and the good.

Second, if you haven't watched these particular YouTube videos, I highly recommend them- she is a counselor, is similar in the Great Catch category as you, and is very validating. She also has an online support forum.

I like some of this guy's vids, too:

I've dated 2 narcissists in my not-so-distant past but dropped them very quickly (not quickly enough?!) because I knew something was up (although I couldn't hang the N-label on them right at the time - it was in retrospect.) They are excellent at sucking people into their sick worlds so don't be too hard on yourself that you couldn't see it coming. The emotions you are experiencing are typical of your experience - which is essentially a form of PTSD, as you noted. Also, give yourself credit for having him sent to jail and getting him out of your life. Do not be surprised if he tries to reestablish contact with you at some point - just never reply.

While I cannot offer much more than that, I really wish you a speedy recovery, Emmi. And, be sooooooooo thankful he is gone. I'll do a happy dance for you.