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Originally Posted by DespHisp
being depressed most of my life,not wanting any more medicine,almost no interest left in this "sh....t" world,no friends,no one special by my side for i do not even remember when was the las time i had a gf.. boring job and most importantly,,Coping with my desires and thoughts about leaving this world sooner better than later..i can tell that my time is coming,,,,every single time i suffer a crisis,,,is getting more and more difficult to overcome it...
i have even joined a special site where people can discuss freely "stuff"and this one maybe probably as one of my last hopes especially wishing to find people who might give some advice regarding your impulses,suicidal thought and how you Cope with those feelings...
one more thing...i am 44 and feeling how big a failure I am as person,no light and hopes,just waiting for the day,Honestly,,the day D that allows me to have courage enough and say goodbye,,
Obviously i have a very extremely tiny hope that keeps me here and i really do not why and what that hope can be...
If there is at least one of you who goes through a very dangerous time like me ,please,please,,,i would love to hear from you....in particular from those
who just like me is not on meds and do not wanna hear about hospitals..
sorry,,,,maybe this is a big message...i do not know..This is my first post ever ,,
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I think you should keep posting. I've gone through 2 bouts of depression, I'm on my 3rd right now...& this really is a lifeline. people here are here to support, others to vent, others offer good advice. I didn't have anyone to talk to , people just don't understand us, we fall down harder than others and get up slower than others. but we are still here. I feel like depression has bled all over my brain, I hate the world for being this way and for not finding happiness, is that how you feel? what is the hope that you're hanging to?
I don't know that I have felt specifically the way you do, but i did wish several times that I wanted just to get hit by a bus. I just didn't and don't care. I'm not in meds either, I wish I could medicate
I'm sorry . I'm so sorry that you feel this way, but you're not alone. we're all walking around with depression trying to swallow us whole .
