Today has been a better day. Since I';m not going to see you for a month I will talk to you here.
I am sorry about letting my payments get out of control but i think that I get angry with you and then the money I have set aside gets used and then I cancel and I have only just realised that i am only hurting myself by doing this. How do i stop being stupid?
Also i am hurt by the comment you made last session, i think you know the one.
Also I don't know how to stop the pain of not seeing you and I am afraid to ask you for help because of the pausing/endings thing you said a couple of years ago.