I'm in the midst of depression. When I have no where to go, I will go days without a shower until sometimes even my husband insists I take one. Even then, I don't blow dry my hair or fix myself up. If I'm being honest, I can even go days without brushing my teeth. I will wear the same clothes over and again.
However, even when I am severely depressed, if I have to go anywhere, I will shower, fix my hair and put on makeup. It is simply embedded in me that no one (aside from family) can see me such a mess. My therapist says that I am able to cope and function better than I think I can solely on the fact that I am so put together when I see her.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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