I read a lot that a label doesn't matter.

For me it does...because I want validation that my feelings, behaviors and actions...are not totally "choices" that I make but a chemical dysfunction in the brain...

I'm 52 and for years...I have been told I have depression. Really depression lasts for 30 years? I have taken some of the tests here on psyche central.

I did not like that I tested high on the Narcissist test...and I tested high on the BPD and the Bioploar tests...but it seems every therapist I have dealt with over the years is hesitant to use a "label". Well, if they would pinpoint some sort of condition...maybe they could treat me accordingly and I would get better.

I can not switch therapist again..because I just switched 6 months ago after being with another therapist for over 10 years. I had to switch the other therapist for 2 reasons..1...she didn't take my new medical coverage...and 2...she didn't work with a pdoc...so my primary care was issuing my meds.

Then I had to switch my primary care after 15 years...because he was not paying attention to various requests from my insurance company to fill out paperwork....And another reason I need a label is for this insurance company to continue paying me benefits. And that is another reason why I can't switch right now because I can't have it look like I am searching for the "right words for my diagnosis". But, I do clearly suffer from many mental conditions that have been labeled for over 10 years...but I do think I really have BPD or Bipolar...and I am being told no for the Bipolar....I'm thinking my next visit...to see if I can get her to come on this site and take the Biopolar, BPD and Narcassit test with me...because when I was answering questions...I thought...I have talked to her about every question and given her examples.