last 2 days I've dreamt about my exes. the heart break and coming to terms with the emotional and psychological abuse triggered my depression. I can only remember last night's: that this ex appeared in the middle of a square and was trying not to hurt me . he along with some thugs surrounded my car and started scratching it. I tried to maneuver around. I got out and chased all of them down, beat up the ex in a rage and he allowed it to happen. apparently it was all a movie scene he was an actor in. I was the only person who didn't know. but they used me because i had natural rage against him and it was good for the movie. he of course made out with a good scene and made lots of money for starring in the movie. I felt angry and used. as the movie wrapped up I searched for the manager, bc someone had to pay damage to my new car. I got brushed off with a fake yeah we will take cared it . I woke up After that. now I'm awake going over this last relationship that ended 1 week ago (different ex) and figuring out that he did mistreat me big time. I jut feel worse . used, sad, and alone. my stomach hurts, feel like I want to throw up