I used to think being stable was boring. I LOVE hypomania and would try to induce it as much as possible. Unfortunately for me hypo only lasts about a week. If it's uncontrolled it will spin into full blown mania which devolves into nasty mixed episodes. Then I always get hospitalized. I did that for a couple of years before I got ECT again and got to experience real stability. Now I think stability is awesome. I've been stable for about two months now and it's been great. I'm confident but not grandiose, energetic but not bouncing off the walls, productive but able to rest and relax. It's the best. I'm finally done with the siren song of mania. It's too dangerous and I have a son to raise. I can't be in the hospital every few months.

So I understand stability seeming boring when you know your mind has access to super powers. But for me it's better.

I'm also on a low dose of meds. Just two different ones. The Invega has really been a life changer for me - no mania or psychosis for almost two years since I've been on it. The jury is still out on the emsam, but I have lots of room to go up if I feel depression creeping in. Only side effect from that is insomnia, which I'm dealing with my taking herbal supplements. I'm so glad I gave up the klonopin!

I respect your decision to stay on meds even though you really don't want to. And also that you were able to lower the risperdal so drastically. You never know until you try!