Thanks flower, I like what you said here:

"I understand stability seeming boring when you know your mind has access to super powers."

That is hard for me. When I'm manic side I totally have access to super powers. It's a different vibration in our bodies, and for me at least, I feel connected to the universe in a way I can't even describe. The buzz from that is amazing. But, as you said, and as my friends keep pointing out, it leads to a tailspin if not medicated by PRNs or whatever is used. So, it's better to have balance. Even if it's boring. Hopefully I can continue telling myself that and believing it and living it. "Walking the walk" as my therapist likes to say.