It sounds pathetic (maybe it is pathetic), but I love her so much. She's the only support I have. My family isn't supportive, I don't have many friends (and they're not particularly "there for me"), I don't have a partner...I just have my therapist. And when she isn't acting like this, she's there for me, she's kind to me...that's more than I can say for anyone else in my life. I don't know what I'd do without her. I'm so painfully attached, the thought of leaving sends me into hysterics.

That's what I wish she would understand - and she said that she did! She told me that she understood that, if she left, it would hurt me terribly, and she wouldn't do it. That was just last week. I don't understand. She even told me (because I asked) that she felt like I did in therapy - that she experienced "maternal transference" like me, and that is was very painful. She even teared up as she said it and had to reach for a tissue.

I don't understand. Thank you all for listening to me.

unaluna, I'm 25. I understand that giving the silent treatment isn't mature, so maybe that's why you were asking about my age. I really am sorry if I've been abusive to her.