To be honest: I'm wondering if, with this T, therapy isn't harming you more than it'll help you.

Just had this thought because of atisketatasket: Could you, instead of talking about your realtionship with your previous t, talk about a former friend? Like: "I used to drink coffee in town xyz whenever i met friend asd before. Now, everytime i walk through xyz, i feel sad". (Don't get me wrong, i don't want you to lie to your T. But i think that you have to benefit somehow. This could make things easier)

Just a thought