I would. It was like that for a few years before I became so destructive last year from an increase in my AD that threw me into hypomania, which I didn't realize at the time. Then I crashed hard into a deep dark depression. I was in PHP for three weeks. I was fine for a few weeks which is why I was discharged, but I have been so up and down since. My concern is keeping up with work. I love my job and don't want to jeopardize it. It's hard to work some days and get little done, or take PTO just because I can't work. I keep in touch with my pdoc through email and she advises me to go up each time. I just want to be able to function and work effectively. I stay home every weekend in bed and go days without a shower (I work from home half of the week). I also see my T every other week. But it seems we're working on past relationships now because there is nothing currently in my life that is triggering me. I feel like I'm to the point of having enough meds and whatever is causing this is buried deep and repressed because I have no idea where this is coming from.
That was more than I intended to write...