And when I chose to live, there was no joy it's just a line I crossed, it wasn't worth the pain my death would cause so I was not lost or found.

~After All - Dar Williams


Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs I know I can't breathe
And hope someone will save me this time...
And sometimes when you're on, you're really ****ing on
And your friends they sing along and they love you
But the lows are so extreme that the good seems ****ing cheap
And it teases you for weeks in it's absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
You'll be better you'll be smarter
And more grown up and a better daughter
Or son and a real good friend
You'll be awake and you'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends
You'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest, you'll be brave
You'll be handsome, you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them...

~Rilo Kiley - A Better Son/Daughter (this song is actually written about manic depression)