I'm very sorry about your pdoc
Mine is not quite as bad as yours, but I do get the feeling he doesn't trust me. Or maybe just doesn't care about me. When I come in he asks me maybe two questions and then just types away at his computer. I had trouble getting a bipolar diagnosis, too - he would say "Well you don't seem to have hypomanic phases" and I would say "Well I didn't get an opportunity to tell you, but..." and then describe all the crazy things I've done while hypomanic. Then he would just say "hmmm" like he didn't believe me. Like I was lying to get diagnosed with bipolar. Like I WANT to be bipolar?!