Oh my god, I so know the feeling of being "jacked up on hormones," nasty business when it starts to mess with your head. Trust your doctors, but do tell them your fears as they can address them. There are anxiety meds out there that don't cause dependence or tolerance, let alone addiction, and are very gentle even for short term. (I am on gabapentin, and it gets rid of my anxiety without making me feel like I'm "on" something). However, going on meds or going the natural route are not mutually exclusive. Yoga and mediation are a kind of medicine, so is cooking and eating healthy, delicious food, aromatherapy, or doing anything to nurture your mind and body. Taking pills from a dr. and doing all these things might be the best solution as you learn about yourself and what coping skills are right for you. Don't give up, take care