I've been on clozaril 2 months now. I'm on more than my pdoc originally planned and I don't know if that's the problem or what is but while it is helping me and I no longer want to die, I am concerned by how little motivation I have to do anything. My email inbox right now has 3 dire warnings of things I must do, most of them quite simple. My house is a mess and I just can't handle it. I am doing laundry now because I am completely out of clean socks and underwear and have worn the same socks 2 days in a row. I have been exercising but the last 2 days didn't because I was even more tired than usual after my med reminder app failed to remind me to take my 5 AM dose so it was taken at 8 AM and I slept most of the day.

I don't think this is depression. I think it's a side effect of the med. I'm tired all the time and it's like brain fog keeps me from planning and doing something.

I see my pdoc in 2 weeks I think and hopefully we can lower my dose some more. I am overall so happy with this stuff but needing 12-15 hours of sleep every day isn't working. It also isn't helping that it doesn't put me to sleep on its' own so I'm taking 1200 mg of gabapentin at night. Most nights I get to sleep between 10:30 and midnight. A few go on later and I have to take hydroxyzine those nights.

I just can't believe how lethargic I am. I'm not used to this at all.