I was concerned about her when I was actively contemplating suicide, and a couple of times when I was making bad decisions with inherently dangerous consequences. I could not stop myself for me, and I believed my family was better off, but as she helped me exam my reasons for wanting to be gone I was able to bring myself back to continue my fight, not because I agreed with her, but because I did not want to leave her with the emotional pain she said she would feel if I committed suicide. During these conversations, she always expressed her concern and sadness that she was experiencing because I was in such deep emotional pain. I just couldn't do that to someone saying that I mattered to them. I had a heart. For me, when I finally got it that it was not all about me, and that I had choices, life finally had a shining light, and we were able to terminate therapy.