I know how you feel. I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety but after 7 years (probably more but I didn't have a diagnoses then) I am beginning to suspect BPD. I asked my T about it last session and she wouldn't tell me if I have it not. Obviously I don't want BPD but if I have it I would like to know. Mainly because I want to know what sort of expectations I should have of myself in terms of recovery. Also, I have had very little luck with antidepressants so far and I'm currently tapering off my current medication as it was not doing anything for me other than making me sweat excessively. I would like to know exactly what I have as that will help me make a better informed decision about wether I should try another antidepressant and what type would be most helpful for me.

I am just so tired of this whole thing really. I have spent so much time and money over the years trying to "fix" myself and I've had enough. Sending hugs to you :sadhus:.