I am a 29 year old man with no friends nor any connection to the outside world to speak of aside from his job. I have dealt with constant rejection from women all my life; I have lost some good female friends over the years because I had developed feelings for them to which they wanted no part of. On the flip side, women have never warmed up to me until getting to know me, so expressing interest early has also led me down the rejection path. The absence of a social life and lack of experience has made it almost impossible for me to connect with anyone; I see others in my age gap raising families of their own and enjoying interesting vacations, basically doing and discussing things that I cannot relate to, so therefore I have nothing to contribute to these discussions aside from a pointless quip or mundane question that takes the conversation nowhere. I have become a boring person, and cannot even recall what it feels like to have a friend, let alone a partner.

Men are interested only in spending time with other couples or with friends they already had, and the fact that I have no friends will scare women off as they will hold no faith that a lasting relationship will work if I can't even manage to hold one honest to goodness friendship. I have nothing to offer any woman and this fact makes me despise myself. Besides, I have no idea where any of the single women are in this town. The most popular method of meeting someone seems to be through friends, though seeing as I have none, this is not an option for me. It seems everyone is content in their lives while I am required to start from scratch at this late stage. It all makes me feel like a failure, and as if I'm a child.

Lastly, I have recently begun therapy for my depression, and upon hearing my issues, my therapist feels the need to lecture me on the basics of communication, speaking to me in a patronizing tone as if I am a complete idiot; not to mention that I am a human services graduate myself and can practically come home and read her entirely dialogue in point form from my textbook. This whole experience has been a waste of time; if I didn't see a human being sitting in front of me during the sessions, then I wouldn't believe I have been speaking to one.

I am at a complete loss in my life, and airing this out on a forum like this seems to be the last thing I can think to do right now.