When I'm depressed, I feel I've always been depressed and never truly been happy. This is a huge lie but I believe it fully in the depression. I remind myself when I'm happy and savor the moments and times.

I hope you are able to pull through this depression and see the happy times in your life soon. If you find you have no happy times, you can start there and begin building them. I know this all sounds like krap right now, in your current state. Please reach out and get the support you need. (((Hugs)))