Now that I've experienced a long period of stability, I realize I am finally now my authentic self in a way I never experienced before. Depression or hypomania really isn't me at all. It was a very painful, unmotivated, fatigued, unconfident, hopeless imposter; or it was an anxious, irritable, oddly driven, even psychotic imposter (hypomania and mania were never positive feelings for me -- always dysphoric). Stable -- I am truly confident, content, happy, healthily motivated, comfortably social, positive me. I MUCH prefer stable me; so glad to have finally met her.