hello CANDC..unfortunately i do not like yoga but i go to my gym several time a week as distraction..;iīve have been depressed many years and i can honestly say that the moment ,the moment i hope i have the courage to..........you know,,,is coming... i feel more and more overwhelmed by my dark desires and thoughts and i cannot say for how much longer i can cope with my problems,,,and even though I know what you and most of you will say to this,when the moment arrives it will be the best moment of my miserable life..i am very very tired of everything and i am myself surprised that i still am here on earth..I do not intent to write a long message because i do not with to bore you with my "issues",so i can probably say that this can be a cry for help...i am literally drowning into my own personal hell.. just one request,please,,,,do not tell me to take meds and go to a psychiatrist,,,i have no gf ,no friends and just a few of my family on my motherīs siden who of course are aware of my situation...until recently they were the main reason to keep on fighting but not anymore.....i guess i am just waiting for some signs that says NOW,,,my life is unbearable....i do not even dare to say it to my doc because i know she will hospitalize me...
thank you very much in advance...
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