I wrote thiswhilst off-line for 3 miserable weeks....

Wednesday, lonely, scared, upset
Only trivial but no internet.
No nurse or Therapist to speak my mind
Sometimes life seems so unkind.

Finances bad,closing in on me
Anxiety grips so violently
Words of court and charges loom
Makes me want to find a dark room.

A room where the world is shut right out
A place where I can rage and shout
Scream frustration, bang my head
Then spent just fall asleep in bed.

In front of my feet eggshells lie
Be calm and normal, do or die.
Don't look back to that awful place
to retrace my footsteps would be disgrace.

Look forwood keep eyes to the front
can't bear again to take the brunt
of accusations so untrue
please take my mind off feeling blue.

Just want to sleep, get away
but not to the dreams from yesterday
to a place of warmth, sunny days
have to get throught this misty haze.

Jinny