as a victim, HOW we perceive the world does not mean we are crazy. your body and mind has done its best to protect you while you were being hurt as a child. now as an adult you are openning yourself up to discover who you really are. that's a big question for someone who has been hiding for a long time. so much shame and fear surround that question. your body will experience things which scare you because in the past, you were numb to feelings because your feelings were hurt so unjustly. whenever you are experiencing these "crazy" feelings (that seem so foreign to you), try accepting them for what they are...feelings. you have the right to be angry, sad, happy, excited, etc. without fear of punishment. you may do things that convince yourself you are crazy, but try to remember "it is perfectly normal for you to be feeling" these feelings. given your past, why not have such feelings? ((((Huggs))))