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Originally Posted by will19
When I'm in my depressive state, I feel like I'm pretty self-absorbed and selfish. If I spend some time with someone, after our time be over, then I would review in my mind how our time went. And then I would cringe thinking about myself. I'd be thinking that all I did was talk about myself and just thought about myself.
I've heard somewhere that depression can make us selfish. I think that it's not in your nature to be a selfish person. It's just that depression can make you (and others) that way. I can't put into words why it's that way, but I have an idea why that is.
Don't feel bad about yourself, by all means! If I think that I've been selfish when I'm with someone, then I would later apologize to them. Maybe you could do that with that guy you hung out with. I think that he would accept your apology. So many people do not understand depression when they have not experienced it. Hard to believe that there are people that don't experience depression.
I think that it's great that you are aware of it. If anyone just got talking about themselves and then apologized to me later on - I would be very grateful that they did. Best to you!
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Thank you for sharing your experiences! You made me feel more human and brought me soo much relief. Thanks for the much needed perspective. I did message him and it's water under the bridge now, though the guilt did keep me awake until 5am as my mind was ruminating about it. lol... but now I'm fine