I used to do that but not like that. That I would make fake people who were like me and I would live their fantasies while I was sleeping. They were always sad and somebody was hurting him but he managed to overcome it. Even know, I imagine how the world would be a better place with "this and that change" and I would spend hours, off and on, imagining this good changes after I see something that upsets me. I'm so much better now, have friends and a life with several hobbies and expectations, but for years I stopped coming out of my house, I gained weight, lost myself in books and internet. I closed myself completely and even know, I feel weird and anxious when somebody try to befriend me.

Like that?

You see, I had OCD, Anxiety and Deep Depression. I wanted to have a girlfriend, friends, to be "the heart of the party" and was punishing myself or negating myself for this fantasies. I needed two things: to derail my life to the point that I had a nervous breakdown of quite epic proportions in my college and 2) A visit with a therapist along with medicines and a lot of work.

Are you sick? I think you had a lot of unfulfilled needs and you found a way to heal yourself.

Is that bad? Well, can you distinguish reality from fiction? For me, it's very, very hard to separate emotionally both worlds and it hurt me.

Maybe you can difference it, but it can become an addiction. And that can create a circle where it damage your situation that force you to follow this desire more and more in larger quantities that damage more your situation and that creates a spiral. That happened to me.

Even if you can separate them, I would recommend you to see a therapist. There is something inside you that needs to come out, to be known and professional help can be a world of difference.

What you are doing is not wrong, but it can be a symptom that there is a pain in yourself that needs to heal. Maybe is social Anxiety. Maybe is a Trauma. Maybe is the situation around you.

Let a professional see you. Trust me, it would make things better. Maybe not immediately and I would not lie, it can hurt in the beginning but slowly it can give you so much more that you can imagine it.

P.D: Sorry If I came a little preachy, I got nervous when responding in the net because I feel that everything is going to be there forever. How are you feeling today?