It does make sense. Except the part about you being the bad guy The rest sounds worthy of further consideration. I am capable of reflection and introspection but I've never been able to connect the intrusive/unwanted/disturbing thoughts to any particular thing. Old hostilities repressed way down deep? Or short circuits in the synaptic process? It was scary at first but I've long since realized that I won't act on those thoughts or impulses.
Bad experiences in school? I can only think of one myself that wasn't just in passing. And yet I had nightmares for years about escaping from my high school Was school tough for you?